Thoughts, Ideas and Inspiration by Melissa Earley

Category: leadership

What would happen if churches asked themselves one question?

Several years ago, my financial planner asked me a question that changed my life. What would happen, I wonder, if churches asked the same question? 

I met with Michael after a major life transition. Instead of launching into analysis on my pension investments, my cash flow spreadsheet, and my current risk tolerance, Michael invited me to take a step back and think about the big picture of my life. He asked me three questions. The first question was “What would you do if money weren’t an issue?” The third question was, “Imagine you are going to die tomorrow, how do you look back on your life? What are you happy about? Do you have any regrets?” It was fun to imagine a life where money was not a limiting factor. It was affirming to realize that on the whole I had led a good life. But these questions did not take me anywhere new. 

The second question made me sit up and take notice: “Imagine your doctor tells you that you have 5 to 10 years left to live. There’s nothing they can do. You will be healthy until you die. You don’t know exactly when, but you will die no matter what in five to ten years.” I was in my early 50’s. I had known people who received a devastating diagnosis at my age. It pushed me to confront the reality of my mortality and not put off the things I wanted to do. 

I changed my life. I moved to Leadville, Colorado to be pastor in residence at a small Episcopal Church where I could have more time for creative pursuits and enjoy the mountains. I am working on a mystery novel, and I get to hike and ski more days than not. I also get to be part of a church that takes service seriously. St. George has a food pantry that provides food to about 1500 people a year and serve just under 11,000 community meals a year. It was a hard transition. I endured culture shock and loneliness. But it was the best decision I ever made.

So, I wonder, what would happen if churches were asked the same question. “Imagine, that you know today that you will close in five to ten years. You don’t know exactly when. But there’s nothing you can do about. No new dynamic pastor, no church growth strategy, no influx of young families will change this prognosis. You’ll remain healthy until them. What will you do with your remaining years?”

As a pastor in United Methodist Churches for over 25 years I have focused a good part of my ministry on church growth. Some of this focus has been rooted in a love of Christ and the church. I am convinced that the most serious issues that we face are rooted in spiritual brokenness. I believe that being part of a spiritual community is a core source of deep, wholistic healing. But as I look back on my ministry, I see how some of my emphasis on church growth was not about the people outside the church at all but about my own ego needs and the institutional anxiety in which I swam.

When church growth came up with any sort of passion among the people in my congregations it was almost always because of growing concern over a waning budget, lower worship attendance, and fewer volunteers. In that context, church growth is not about service. It is about survival. 

So, what would happen if you knew that your church closing in five to ten years was a fait accompli? How would you use the energy and resources that you’ve been pouring into church growth? What would your committee meetings look like? How would you use your building? If you preach, what would you finally say to your congregation? What would you insist your congregation do because it’s now or never? 

Take a look at your list and note the things you’re not already doing. Why not? What stops you? Is it worth it?

Leading from the Midst

I wanted to go to the Monday night Bible study the day after Easter. This was remarkable. Easter Monday, as I call it, is usually a treasured day off after the marathon of Holy Week worship services, the work of planning Easter Sunday, the energy expenditure of the larger than normal crowd and then the inevitable let down Easter night. But I didn’t want to miss it.

I suppose a pastor should always want to go to Bible study. We are, after all, the religious nerds of our community, unusually committed not just to our own spirituality but to religious institutions as well. But honestly, I’ve been just as glad as anyone for a break from a long-term study. I’ve felt the glee of a second grader getting a snow day when I’ve cancelled a study because of inclement weather. I look forward to holiday breaks and summer vacation.

One of the dangers of being clergy is the blurring of the lines between what we do for a paycheck and what we do because it is authentically who we are. I’ve gone through periods not sure that I would go to worship if I weren’t paid to be there. I have preached the “Good News” as much to convince myself as to convince the people in the pews. Sometimes I’m not sure if what I am saying is really what I know to be true or just something that sounds good.

To realize I wanted to go to Bible study was a gift. Something is happening for me in that group. I am growing and deepening spiritually. I am the leader of the group, but also a co-participant. We share deeply from our own lives and ask important questions of the text. We take the risk of not sticking with pat answers. We sometimes disagree. I learn from the stories that others share and the wisdom of the gathered community. People share their life experiences, and together we ponder deep questions.

This experience reflects and shapes my leadership. The image of leadership that I most often see lifted up is of someone standing at the front of the pack, a bit at a distance, pointing the way with a confident arm. A strong leader sets the vision and answers to the questions. The leader is never unsure, is always unwavering. These days, I am not leading from the front, I’m somewhere in the middle. I convene the group, make room for questions, share what I know, ask what others know, admit when I’m wrong, confess uncertainty, and trust that the Spirit will move among us and not just with me. I am leading from the midst of the gathered people. Is that really leadership? I’m not sure what the leadership gurus would say, but it feels right to me. And it’s good for my spirit.

 

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